Thursday, August 26, 2010

Waking up to Living In Choice

With the Planetary wake-up call of the summer with the continuing effect of Pluto's transit through Capricorn, which began back in 2008 and will continue until 2023, reflecting to us the consequences of our having trusted that governments had our back, so to speak. The reality of this planetary influence has highlighted the predicament we have found ourselves in - Katrina being a precursor to this - that we cannot sustain that which is unsustainable. We see it again with the floods currently happening in Pakistan. Today officials are asking 500,000 more Pakistanis to leave their homes because of new flooding.

The reality, we don't have much choice in this intensity except in our attitudes and choices in face of these Earth shifts. We can work toward a new sense of compassion for those in need, we can take the time to be present to our own feelings about what is happening not only in the world but also in our own lives. We can just love each other more- we can find within ourselves the best part of our natures and use these experiences for our individual healing of that which has been unethical for so long.

This is a time for personal accountability to do the work of healing and clearing and consciousness is supporting us in that process. If we see ourselves as victims of it then we have missed the opportunity for growth.

Remember what we see out in the world is just a reflections of what we are holding within.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Life goes on

Living in choice during challenging times like the death of a parent, at least for me, called for a more focused effort to stay present to each moment. I found myself wanting to run away, avoid, resist, be angry, get caught up in something other than the moment. When I noticed I was not living in choice, I reminded myself to breathe through my heart while I thought about the beauty of life as I was taught in HeartMath, causing a return to coherence in my heart rhythm. As my heart rate slowed and balanced, I found I could be present to my Mothers labored breathing as she fought to hold on to life.

In her last 6 months of life, following a stroke that paralyzed her ability to eat, walk, speak plainly, engage in activities, I was amazed at her ability to be pleasant to her caretakers, appreciating their efforts to make her comfortable. They loved her and she loved them back. She asked little of my sister and I, but was always happy to see us and always said "I love you."

She chose to live in choice at every breath - even to not take the next one.

She was a great teacher and role model and I will miss her physical presence, but I know she was ready for what comes next.